Claudia Ghetu WELLness

The Wisdom of Ancient Science for Advanced Healing and Transformation


How Cancer is Healing Me

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MY SUDDEN DIAGNOSIS 

In June of this year, 2018, I found out that I had stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. Literally out of the blue my life changed overnight! Imagine one day you think you’re healthy, life is normal, and the next day someone tells you you have months left to live. Well that’s exactly what happened to me. But instead of panicking, I embraced this as a positive challenge, a monumental opportunity for growth, and a preliminary step to a profound awakening.  As the doctors looked at me piteously while giving me the grim news, I smiled and said “Ok, great…I’m glad I know now. I know all will be fine.” Peace flowed over me. Acceptance. Joy. I cannot describe the relief I felt just from finding out what was wrong with me – or the fact that there was something actually wrong, despite x-rays and blood work that always confirmed I was healthy.

LIFE BEFORE STAGE 4

Meanwhile, for some years most likely, unbeknownst to me, I was working up to stage 4 pancreatic, and even the few more recent emergency room visits and doctors could not detect it, sending me home to take Tylenol for pain! I am one who believes in the daily practice of positive affirmations – so I had always affirmed “I am well, I am in perfect health.”  Yet, even though I believed and affirmed I was in perfect health, I had been suffering with bouts of mysterious pains in my left upper and  lower abdomen and upper chest (which took me to the emergency room on several occasions), and gastrointestinal digestive issues. I had a feeling something had to be fixed at a much deeper level, and that there was something ‘stuck,’ blocking my energy and body’s ability to absorb nutrients.

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After lymph node biopsy which detected a stage 4 carcinoma tumor, sitting on top of two blood clots on my left side; and a thyroid biopsy the next day.

HOW I FOUND OUT

It was a dentist’s visit that ended up sending me to the emergency room in early June, where they identified two blood clots, one on my jugular vein and one on the subclavian lymph node in my left neck (right above the clavicle bone), with a carcinoma tumor the size of a small lime. A few days prior, I went to see my dentist to fit me for a new crown. The next day I noticed pain in my neck on the same side where the work was done. Bacteria seeped into my lymph node, which was already clogged no doubt, and it erupted like a volcano pushing the tumor out. Did you know that numerous root canals can lead to cancer and massive toxicity in the body over time?

EMERGENCY ROOM FINDING

A few days later the whole left side of my neck was swollen and red, and I could hardly move my neck.  Once at the emergency room I got immediately admitted into the hospital for extensive blood work and tests, I received my diagnosis of stage 4 pancreatic cancer which had spread to my liver and lymph nodes. My lymph glands had swollen every where in my body, especially in my stomach and neck, and I was also diagnosed with acute gastritis and esophagitis. I could hardly eat, as the swelling of lymph nodes continued into my left arm where additional blood clots were identified. I was put on blood thinners right away. The initial concern was that the blood clots in my neck and on the jagular vein were in such close proximity to the brain and the heart. Somehow despite all this, I knew everything would be fine. In a matter of hours people began praying for me, especially my immediate spiritual community at my church. The prayers were so intense that I felt as if my body was being lifted, and began experiencing an unprecedented state of peace and blissfulness. I felt so incredibly light, and so calm. I can attest to the divine power of prayer. God was ever-present.

LIFE AND DEATH

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Lymph node tumor shortly after biopsy, three days after emergency room hospitalization, before given full diagnosis.

They call pancreatic cancer ‘the silent killer’ because it’s not easily detectable, even though I had had blood work regularly over the years, including ultrasounds and x-rays. The hardest part of all this was breaking the news to my family. I could take it no problem. After all it was only a diagnosis as far as I saw it and not a life sentence. I don’t believe in the allopathic medical system, and I took everything they told me with a grain of salt. I always knew that if push came to shove, I would never be a victim of our medical system. I am actually one of these people that doesn’t fear death, because I know with full faith what lies beyond.  My life has always revolved around my strong spiritual practice and unwavering faith in God, karma, and the soul’s destiny and purpose. Death for me is a mere transition from the physical body, into the energy body and beyond, and part of our cosmic evolution.

“I’LL DO IT MY WAY”

My life philosophy and spiritual path is based on detachment and surrendering to a higher power, through a deep connection to the Higher Self. But I also believe in fighting for my life now, because God helps those who help themselves! And I am convinced that through my trials, facing and ultimately overcoming cancer, I can and will help others become more educated in making treatment choices, and empower them to realize that cancer is treatable and not a death sentence. As a holistic health and nutrition coach, yoga therapist, and wellness counselor I have always made it my personal business to educate myself and bring healing and support to those who seek it. I also have offered this support freely, deriving the greatest joy from giving and sharing the gift of life and health.  

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Receiving Targeted Photogenic Light Laser therapy directly into my lymph node tumor, with outstanding results resulting in 70% shrinkage.

LOVING CANCER

I believe that cancer saved my life! It is not an enemy. We shouldn’t hate and ‘fight’ cancer. Why? Because then we are fighting and hating ourselves. Cancer has to be accepted. It’s part of my body now. And I choose to heal it with love and care. I even give it thanks. What is the strongest universal energy and vibration? Love. Love heals. It takes a certain understanding to get this: you have to love yourself to heal yourself, and love the cancer because it is part of your body.

KILLING VS. LOVING

Instead of wanting to ‘kill’ cancer you transform it. You accept it and release it. You shift consciousness. Isn’t that the message for the ages: Don’t fight aggression with aggression? Cancer manifests in the body when the cells are completely overwhelmed by toxins, and the body can no longer process and expel all the junk that has accumulated over time for individually specific reasons. Why get mad at the body for trying to do its job?

Cancer cells are always present in our bodies, but they do not become active unless our immune system runs down and becomes overloaded with expelling toxins. When cancer turns into a tumor, that tumor actually isolates all the cancer cells in one spot so they don’t run rampantly throughout the body and spread. If the tumor is not detected early, the cancer cells will multiply throughout the body and spread. Once I understood that, I began thanking my cells, even the cancerous ones, for trying to protect me. For fighting for me all this time! They were overwhelmed. Forgiveness-in-an-Ugly-WorldI felt love and sympathy for what my body had endured.

TIME TO HEAL

I now send love to my liver and pancreas and my lymph nodes. I do this multiple times of day now, and talk to my cells and guide them towards healing. The first thing that I was told that made the most sense after my diagnosis was “cancer is not trying to kill you, it’s trying to heal you!” This statement came from a remarkable woman who cured herself of cancer and who guided me to the best possible clinic for integrative cancer treatment, where she also received care. I met her via an email through a friend who suggested I contact her, and in less than 24 hours after we talked she brought me down to this amazing place just outside the country, and put me in the hands of the most amazing medical team. I am so grateful. She saved my life. Truly God sent. And I plan to pass it forward!

COUNTDOWN TO FULL RECOVERY

IMG_1629Since I have been here, going on my fifth week of treatment, my cancer markers have gone down, and the tumor in my neck has shrunk by 70%! And I continue to make unprecedented progress, despite that I was given only months to live (from the traditional doctors of course). Having to unexpectedly finance the cost of this treatment out of pocket all alone, I have been blessed with the outstanding support of friends and acquaintances who started a GoFundMe link, to help me receive my first weeks of  crucial treatment at no cost, but the additional weeks and months needed are not covered beyond next week (July 30, 2018)! Yet, I have full faith that I will somehow be granted the opportunity to continue my treatment through further divinely guide shares and contributions. I have to maintain my progress as the doctors advised me here at the clinic this week, with follow up visits after departure. I wanted to share my story  in real time, and I will continue to do so, because my journey may inspire others to carve out their own journey, where radical healing is possible despite all circumstances.

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MY MISSION AND PROMISE

I want to heal for myself and for the world. So I can make a difference. So I can show others that there are so many possibilities to overcome this, and to guide others as I have been guided. Once you understand that cancer is a gift in disguise and go beyond fear, have the right tools and resources to seek the proper treatment – including a more non-conventional alternative based and integrative approach (because it works!) – then the rest is history. I never wanted to look in the mirror and see an emaciated person with no hair staring back at me. So instead, I opted to keep my body intact without destroying it from the inside out, and to work for and with my immune system, and not kill it with inhumane maximum doses of poorly targeted chemotherapy and radiation.  The results speak for themselves, as my weekly GoFundMe Updates so far indicate, but far more work is needed both financially and treatment wise!

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Thank you, to all the caring souls out there who are holding space for me, who have contributed to my LIFE, and without whom none of this would have been possible. Please continue to share my link and this story, as I will continue to fight for myself and for those who will need me in the future! 

In Eternal Gratitude and Health,

Claudia ‘Atmadevi’

“Unless we lose ourselves in the service of others, there is little purpose to our own lives.” – Mother Theresa


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The Greatest Love of All

“There are whole parts of ourselves that are so unwanted that whenever they begin to come up we run away. Because we escape, we keep missing being right here, being right on the dot… Only to the degree that we’ve gotten to know our own personal pain, only to the degree that we’ve related to pain at all, will we be fearless enough, brave enough, and enough of a warrior to be willing to feel the pain of others.” – P. Chödrön

It is often impossible to love ourselves with the same unconditional ability and fullness of heart that we are capable of extending towards loving other people. It is equally far more difficult to forgive ourselves, by comparison to our innate ability to forgive others.  Usually the anger we feel towards other people has a beginning, middle, and end. The anger or disappointment we tend to carry towards ourselves, however, seems to fester and persist beyond chronological borders, sometimes spanning the course of a lifetime.  Indeed, beyond all the self-denial and armored resistance, it may be possible that we are in fact the hardest people to love, accept, and forgive.

To fully realize and accept such a harsh universal truth, I believe we must arrive at a point of absolute stillness, a stripped-down-to-the-bone self-awareness – to the point where we can milk and digest everything that is raw and excruciatingly honest about ourselves, with a painstaking clarity that transcends ego and self-denial. Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche asks the most poignant question of all:

‘Have we ever unmasked, stripping out of our suit of armor and our shirt and skin and flesh and veins, right down to the heart?’

And Pema Chödrön, perhaps the most outspoken writer and teacher on the topic of cultivating self-love, forgiveness, and self-healing, writes that this journey to face ourselves, “(as) embarrassing and painful (as it is), it is very healing to stop hiding from yourself.”  Simply put, healing comes from not hiding from oneself — from being able to face the truth about who we are, as imperfect as we may be, despite all the flaws and embarrassing mistakes we’ve swept under the rug.  Ironically, it seems that the things we elusively seek from other people are the things we are not fully capable of giving to ourselves: love, forgiveness, and acceptance.  In fact, the harder it is to love, accept and forgive others, the harder it is to turn and face the mirror and turn those sentiments towards ourselves.  How can we be loving and compassionate towards the world if we cannot overcome our punishing preoccupation with our own imperfections, self-scrutiny, and relentless self-blame?

“When we hear about compassion, it naturally brings up working with others, caring for others. The reason we’re not often there for others – whether for our child or our mother or someone who is insulting us or someone who frightens us – is that we’re not there for ourselves.” – P. Chödrön

The founding pillar of Buddhist philosophy is unconditional love, which is the natural precursor to compassion – beginning with love for the ‘self’ and extending to love for all living beings. The Dharma strongly stresses the importance of not judging ourselves too harshly, and treating ourselves with the compassion and respect that we ought to show others. The ability to maintain a ‘soft heart’ towards oneself has been translated by the venerable Chogyam Trungpa Ringpoche as ‘unconditional friendliness to oneself,’ or maitri.  It goes without saying that one can only love another insofar as one can love oneself.  Everything begins with the Self – and it is only within the self that we can begin to cultivate the greatest love of all, not only for our benefit, but also for the benefit of the greater world at large. So, during this period of renewal, on the onset of a new year pregnant with the possibility of rebirth – I invite us all to sit for a moment and reflect on everything that is good, worthy, and lovable about Our Selves. At the root of this effort lies the very seed destined to sprout the most priceless gift – a gift valuable far beyond scrutiny and doubt, a gift worth cultivating and preserving above all others.  The gift of maitri.

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 “We already have everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement.  All these trips we lay on ourselves – the heavy-duty fearing that we’re bad and hoping that we’re good, the identities that we so dearly cling to the rage, the jealousy and the addictions of all kinds – never touch our basic wealth. They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake.” – P. Chödrön