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MY SUDDEN DIAGNOSIS
In June of this year, 2018, I found out that I had stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. Literally out of the blue my life changed overnight! Imagine one day you think you’re healthy, life is normal, and the next day someone tells you you have months left to live. Well that’s exactly what happened to me. But instead of panicking, I embraced this as a positive challenge, a monumental opportunity for growth, and a preliminary step to a profound awakening. As the doctors looked at me piteously while giving me the grim news, I smiled and said “Ok, great…I’m glad I know now. I know all will be fine.” Peace flowed over me. Acceptance. Joy. I cannot describe the relief I felt just from finding out what was wrong with me – or the fact that there was something actually wrong, despite x-rays and blood work that always confirmed I was healthy.
LIFE BEFORE STAGE 4
Meanwhile, for some years most likely, unbeknownst to me, I was working up to stage 4 pancreatic, and even the few more recent emergency room visits and doctors could not detect it, sending me home to take Tylenol for pain! I am one who believes in the daily practice of positive affirmations – so I had always affirmed “I am well, I am in perfect health.” Yet, even though I believed and affirmed I was in perfect health, I had been suffering with bouts of mysterious pains in my left upper and lower abdomen and upper chest (which took me to the emergency room on several occasions), and gastrointestinal digestive issues. I had a feeling something had to be fixed at a much deeper level, and that there was something ‘stuck,’ blocking my energy and body’s ability to absorb nutrients.
HOW I FOUND OUT
It was a dentist’s visit that ended up sending me to the emergency room in early June, where they identified two blood clots, one on my jugular vein and one on the subclavian lymph node in my left neck (right above the clavicle bone), with a carcinoma tumor the size of a small lime. A few days prior, I went to see my dentist to fit me for a new crown. The next day I noticed pain in my neck on the same side where the work was done. Bacteria seeped into my lymph node, which was already clogged no doubt, and it erupted like a volcano pushing the tumor out. Did you know that numerous root canals can lead to cancer and massive toxicity in the body over time?
EMERGENCY ROOM FINDING
A few days later the whole left side of my neck was swollen and red, and I could hardly move my neck. Once at the emergency room I got immediately admitted into the hospital for extensive blood work and tests, I received my diagnosis of stage 4 pancreatic cancer which had spread to my liver and lymph nodes. My lymph glands had swollen every where in my body, especially in my stomach and neck, and I was also diagnosed with acute gastritis and esophagitis. I could hardly eat, as the swelling of lymph nodes continued into my left arm where additional blood clots were identified. I was put on blood thinners right away. The initial concern was that the blood clots in my neck and on the jagular vein were in such close proximity to the brain and the heart. Somehow despite all this, I knew everything would be fine. In a matter of hours people began praying for me, especially my immediate spiritual community at my church. The prayers were so intense that I felt as if my body was being lifted, and began experiencing an unprecedented state of peace and blissfulness. I felt so incredibly light, and so calm. I can attest to the divine power of prayer. God was ever-present.
LIFE AND DEATH
They call pancreatic cancer ‘the silent killer’ because it’s not easily detectable, even though I had had blood work regularly over the years, including ultrasounds and x-rays. The hardest part of all this was breaking the news to my family. I could take it no problem. After all it was only a diagnosis as far as I saw it and not a life sentence. I don’t believe in the allopathic medical system, and I took everything they told me with a grain of salt. I always knew that if push came to shove, I would never be a victim of our medical system. I am actually one of these people that doesn’t fear death, because I know with full faith what lies beyond. My life has always revolved around my strong spiritual practice and unwavering faith in God, karma, and the soul’s destiny and purpose. Death for me is a mere transition from the physical body, into the energy body and beyond, and part of our cosmic evolution.
“I’LL DO IT MY WAY”
My life philosophy and spiritual path is based on detachment and surrendering to a higher power, through a deep connection to the Higher Self. But I also believe in fighting for my life now, because God helps those who help themselves! And I am convinced that through my trials, facing and ultimately overcoming cancer, I can and will help others become more educated in making treatment choices, and empower them to realize that cancer is treatable and not a death sentence. As a holistic health and nutrition coach, yoga therapist, and wellness counselor I have always made it my personal business to educate myself and bring healing and support to those who seek it. I also have offered this support freely, deriving the greatest joy from giving and sharing the gift of life and health.
I believe that cancer saved my life! It is not an enemy. We shouldn’t hate and ‘fight’ cancer. Why? Because then we are fighting and hating ourselves. Cancer has to be accepted. It’s part of my body now. And I choose to heal it with love and care. I even give it thanks. What is the strongest universal energy and vibration? Love. Love heals. It takes a certain understanding to get this: you have to love yourself to heal yourself, and love the cancer because it is part of your body.
KILLING VS. LOVING
Instead of wanting to ‘kill’ cancer you transform it. You accept it and release it. You shift consciousness. Isn’t that the message for the ages: Don’t fight aggression with aggression? Cancer manifests in the body when the cells are completely overwhelmed by toxins, and the body can no longer process and expel all the junk that has accumulated over time for individually specific reasons. Why get mad at the body for trying to do its job?
Cancer cells are always present in our bodies, but they do not become active unless our immune system runs down and becomes overloaded with expelling toxins. When cancer turns into a tumor, that tumor actually isolates all the cancer cells in one spot so they don’t run rampantly throughout the body and spread. If the tumor is not detected early, the cancer cells will multiply throughout the body and spread. Once I understood that, I began thanking my cells, even the cancerous ones, for trying to protect me. For fighting for me all this time! They were overwhelmed. I felt love and sympathy for what my body had endured.
TIME TO HEAL
I now send love to my liver and pancreas and my lymph nodes. I do this multiple times of day now, and talk to my cells and guide them towards healing. The first thing that I was told that made the most sense after my diagnosis was “cancer is not trying to kill you, it’s trying to heal you!” This statement came from a remarkable woman who cured herself of cancer and who guided me to the best possible clinic for integrative cancer treatment, where she also received care. I met her via an email through a friend who suggested I contact her, and in less than 24 hours after we talked she brought me down to this amazing place just outside the country, and put me in the hands of the most amazing medical team. I am so grateful. She saved my life. Truly God sent. And I plan to pass it forward!
COUNTDOWN TO FULL RECOVERY
Since I have been here, going on my fifth week of treatment, my cancer markers have gone down, and the tumor in my neck has shrunk by 70%! And I continue to make unprecedented progress, despite that I was given only months to live (from the traditional doctors of course). Having to unexpectedly finance the cost of this treatment out of pocket all alone, I have been blessed with the outstanding support of friends and acquaintances who started a GoFundMe link, to help me receive my first weeks of crucial treatment at no cost, but the additional weeks and months needed are not covered beyond next week (July 30, 2018)! Yet, I have full faith that I will somehow be granted the opportunity to continue my treatment through further divinely guide shares and contributions. I have to maintain my progress as the doctors advised me here at the clinic this week, with follow up visits after departure. I wanted to share my story in real time, and I will continue to do so, because my journey may inspire others to carve out their own journey, where radical healing is possible despite all circumstances.
MY MISSION AND PROMISE
I want to heal for myself and for the world. So I can make a difference. So I can show others that there are so many possibilities to overcome this, and to guide others as I have been guided. Once you understand that cancer is a gift in disguise and go beyond fear, have the right tools and resources to seek the proper treatment – including a more non-conventional alternative based and integrative approach (because it works!) – then the rest is history. I never wanted to look in the mirror and see an emaciated person with no hair staring back at me. So instead, I opted to keep my body intact without destroying it from the inside out, and to work for and with my immune system, and not kill it with inhumane maximum doses of poorly targeted chemotherapy and radiation. The results speak for themselves, as my weekly GoFundMe Updates so far indicate, but far more work is needed both financially and treatment wise!
Thank you, to all the caring souls out there who are holding space for me, who have contributed to my LIFE, and without whom none of this would have been possible. Please continue to share my link and this story, as I will continue to fight for myself and for those who will need me in the future!
In Eternal Gratitude and Health,